The other night I had a crazy, confusing and a little upsetting dream.
I need to protect the innocent here; well, I need to protect myself - that is my first priority.
The dream relates to my high school life and there's no real conclusion I can draw from this dream, as it doesn't really relate to my life right now.
Anyway, here goes. We were in church. I remember the church being the Catholic Church I basically grew up in, attending etc. It was the church near my school at the time. However, oddly the church was facing the opposite direction to what it is in reality. When you walked into the front doors, the pews were facing that door - in real life, the pews face away from the door. Nothing huge, but a change for my dream.
Ok, so I was on one side of the church and there were a whole bunch of people on the other side. On my side, my mother sat, but not beside me. And in my dream, Glen was there - sort of, except he was kinda represented by someone from my past, who was a guy I liked whilst in high school. I'll call him S. Anyway, I couldn't understand why my partner, who was S in the dream, was sitting on the other side of the church with a whole heap of other people. It hurt me and I couldn't fathom why he wouldn't want to be with me. I think I had equated my real life with this relationship, as Glen would always want to be with me, not with other people.
Anyway, on the other side of the church were two influential people from my church when I was a teenager. These people had become married to each other during the period of my time in the church. They were avid Christians and to us at the time, we worshipped and envied them. Some of us wanted to be like them, or at least be accepted by them. Anyway, I will call them K&G. I don't know why they were in the dream. I do know that other high school friends were there, including a friend I was friends with, but wasn't overly close to. I shall refer to her as B. She was close friends with D - but D wasn't in the dream, I don't think. I don't even think KG was there - another Christian friend. There was a 'mass' of heads on that side of the church and I knew that K&G were in that mass.
Yeh, I know, I am not making that much sense. But that time in my life was a bit emotional and uncertain. My life has become comfortable and certain. I have stability in my relationship and in my life in general and to have this dream, I woke up feeling very unsure of myself. I didn't like visiting my teenage life in my dreams, against my wishes, so to speak!
I've probably wasted 10 precious minutes of your time. I'm sorry. It was just something I needed to document for myself. Substituting S for Glen in my dream was a bit surreal and made me really unhappy. But in my dream, S was Glen and it never occurred to me that S wasn't Glen and wasn't meant to be Glen! Argh, it's doing my head in!
I need to protect the innocent here; well, I need to protect myself - that is my first priority.
The dream relates to my high school life and there's no real conclusion I can draw from this dream, as it doesn't really relate to my life right now.
Anyway, here goes. We were in church. I remember the church being the Catholic Church I basically grew up in, attending etc. It was the church near my school at the time. However, oddly the church was facing the opposite direction to what it is in reality. When you walked into the front doors, the pews were facing that door - in real life, the pews face away from the door. Nothing huge, but a change for my dream.
Ok, so I was on one side of the church and there were a whole bunch of people on the other side. On my side, my mother sat, but not beside me. And in my dream, Glen was there - sort of, except he was kinda represented by someone from my past, who was a guy I liked whilst in high school. I'll call him S. Anyway, I couldn't understand why my partner, who was S in the dream, was sitting on the other side of the church with a whole heap of other people. It hurt me and I couldn't fathom why he wouldn't want to be with me. I think I had equated my real life with this relationship, as Glen would always want to be with me, not with other people.
Anyway, on the other side of the church were two influential people from my church when I was a teenager. These people had become married to each other during the period of my time in the church. They were avid Christians and to us at the time, we worshipped and envied them. Some of us wanted to be like them, or at least be accepted by them. Anyway, I will call them K&G. I don't know why they were in the dream. I do know that other high school friends were there, including a friend I was friends with, but wasn't overly close to. I shall refer to her as B. She was close friends with D - but D wasn't in the dream, I don't think. I don't even think KG was there - another Christian friend. There was a 'mass' of heads on that side of the church and I knew that K&G were in that mass.
Yeh, I know, I am not making that much sense. But that time in my life was a bit emotional and uncertain. My life has become comfortable and certain. I have stability in my relationship and in my life in general and to have this dream, I woke up feeling very unsure of myself. I didn't like visiting my teenage life in my dreams, against my wishes, so to speak!
I've probably wasted 10 precious minutes of your time. I'm sorry. It was just something I needed to document for myself. Substituting S for Glen in my dream was a bit surreal and made me really unhappy. But in my dream, S was Glen and it never occurred to me that S wasn't Glen and wasn't meant to be Glen! Argh, it's doing my head in!
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